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The Realities of Life by Odessa Benaning
by RP Tesoro
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(Making actions that can make or break a person.)
Each and every one of us is unique in our individual way. Some of us become visible to be brave; outside, while vulnerable inside others; appears to be the other way around. In our special journey in life we can do things that may not be satisfactory to other people but it would have some big impact on the other person. What I’m trying to say is that, human as we are sometimes; the things that we do that might seem pretty normal on ourselves might be something out of the ordinary to others.
In our voyage in life, we can meet people that would touch our lives in such a special way and we touched theirs in such a special way too. In my case, I was able to inspire other people about the kind of confidence that I have in myself. We sometimes, tend to ignore the kind of personality that we have, which makes us a unique individual, because for us it is normal; but unknowingly, we would be surprise on how we were able to motivate others with that kind of personality that we possess.
Well, last February 24, 2008, something happened to me, something out of the ordinary I guess, I would just spare you guys the details about the real incident, I was able to did a courageous act towards a guy (some guts, it has something to do with the truth) which I kept inside, for quite sometime already. I want to tell him personally but it did not happen that way, so I revealed it just through text. Anyways, I told a good friend of mine through a text message about what happened, she is my good friend back in college and she was astonished with the kind of courage that I have. I’ll rather not mention names to protect their privacy so to speak. That incident happened on a Sunday, Feb. 24, as they say in physics, every action there’s an equal and opposite reaction. That’s right, now I must face the consequence of my action, luckily for me I felt more free and happy because it’s as if that a big thorn was pulled out of me. It’s just that, I do not have any idea about its effect to the person involved, its due to the fact, that we did not have the chance to talk after the incident, though we came to an agreement that were better of as friends. For both of us are not yet ready to commit into a relationship.
I came to a realization that it’s really hard to face the reality of life. Friendship is important to each and every one of us for “NO MAN IS AN ISLAND”. But what would you do if the bond of friendship that you once shared with a good friend, is now partly wreck? I mean things would never be the same again right?
At this point in time, I’m still pondering on the things that I have done. I came to apprehend that, reality is at the times harsh. As I was contemplating, I ask myself, did I make the right option to declare it to him? Or did I just make things worst? Of course, I can no longer turn back time, but if only I could, I would have chosen to just keep it to myself. But then again, everything happens for a reason. Maybe at this point in my life I would have want to change everything, but then, how would I found out the wisdom that God wants to teach me through the incident that took place, if it did not happen.
“Time heals all wounds” as they say, but can it also heal or destroy the gap that is now separating us? Sure it can I guess, but when? How would I know that it has already been healed? They all say that “PATIENCE IS A VERTUE” so I guess I would just have to wait for the right time, in Gods proper time, I know that the reason, behind all these would just slowly reveal it self.
It’s just like looking for a job, I have been jobless for 5 years now, and I kept on asking myself why? Why is it that, no company does wants to hire me? (Though, technically, I was offered by a person, (which name I’d rather not mention), to be a production assistant in a movie) but I was not able to last that long. Sure, I graduated from a well-known university but still it’s not a guarantee that you would easily lend a job. But, I have always been hopeful that God is still preparing the best job for me and vise versa. Being jobless for 5 years now, has already taken a tool out of me, I have no money, no job, I can not buy the things I want to buy, it’s hard and it’s getting harder each time, you see your friends and classmates who are already happy with the job that they have.
I love to write, but all my writings have never been read or seen by anyone before, its just maybe, I’m not that confident enough with the way I write my stories. Every time, I read some body else’s work and I’m impressed with the way that person wrote his/her story I would feel ashamed of the way I wrote mine. That is why for 2 years or so, I lost my interest in writing. The good thing that happened to me after the said incident is that, I was able to regain my interest in writing. I also came to apprehend, that all this time, the kind of job that I want to have is this, being a writer. It took me 4 years, to finally grasp what do I want to do in life, and that is to become a renowned writer/author someday.
I used to dream (and I’m still dreaming that up to now), of publishing a book with my own name written on it, but something happened, and that dream was shattered to pieces. Right now, I’m devoting my time to submit an application for a job and at the same time writing, for writing has always been my passion in life.
What happened last Feb 24, gave me the courage that I need to finally let other people examine and be acquainted with my writings. I’m also hoping that I would be a columnist someday. Probably, have my own advice column from a well-known magazine, or just simply read my name and article printed on a broadsheet or on a community press. I hope that someday this dream would come true.
All of us are indeed unique. That none two people are the same, its all because god made us this way. Even twins, no matter how identical they are, still you would be able to distinguish one from the other. God love us so much that he made us all to be different, so that we will have our own eccentricity and own mark in this world.
As I was writing this, earlier that day, I watched a DVD about a movie entitled “The Runaway Bride” stars the most handsome Richard Gere and the ever beautiful Julia Roberts. For all of you, who have watched the movie I’m sure you already familiar with the story but, for some of you who have not, the movie was all about a columnist in Manhattan, New York, Ike Graham played by Mr. Gere and a hardware saleswoman from Hale, Maryland Maggie Carpenter played by Ms. Roberts.
The story started when Mr. Graham wrote an article in his column entitled “Hit and Run” a story about a woman in Hale, Maryland, who always runaway from her wedding day, she called her “The Runaway Bride” for she already had three weddings in a row and she always runs away from those weddings. When Maggie read the story about her, she was furious about him, that she wrote a letter to the editor and had him fried from being a columnist in the USA TODAY newspaper. He was devastated, and a friend of his the husband of his ex-wife gave him some tips to re-gain his career, he told him to go to Hale, Maryland to interview Ms. Maggie Carpenter and put supporting facts on his article. So he went there thinking that it would be easy to talk to her but he was wrong, she was making it hard for him to get the facts form her. So he came up with this idea to basically talk to the entire people in the town who knew Maggie and had personal relationship with her. This annoyed her because he was getting into her nerves by digging out all the necessary facts that he needed to write the said article about her. Well to make the long story short, they both end up loving each other and obviously they got married in the end of the story.
You might probably asking by now, how does this have some connection in my life? I consider myself as a journalist, so essentially I can mostly relate to the character of Mr. Graham but I’m a woman and since she clearly is very different, because she had already three wedding ceremonies, but still she end up running away from the groom on the day of the wedding which would make her very famous in their town by the way. The point is, I’m just like her, because what I have done, and well not all women can dare to do such a thing, especially not in the context of being a Filipina and also being part of a community so to speak.
Right now, I’m facing the consequence of my action, I’m trying to act as if nothing happens that after the incident everything would be back to normal, I thought that it’s just as easy as one, two, three but I was wrong. Now, there is already a gap that separates us, things would never be the same again, the friendship that was formed is now somewhat wreck. I just hope that everything would be back to the way it was before, or at least the kind of closeness we once shared. I’m hopeful but not expecting.
The author, Odessa L. Benaning is 25 years of age, an AB-Mass Communications graduate from Ateneo de Davao University and an active member of the Singles for Christ Community. She is currently looking for a job and loves to write. Date added 2008-03-13 10:15:30
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 love | I would just like to thank all the people who have read my story, thank you for all the encouragement that you have given me, indeed your reaction towards this article, gives me more confidence to really pursue my dreams. GOD BLESS YOU ALL! once again thank you
Date added 2008-03-27 10:13:31 |
 alexander | May mga bagay na nangyayari sa buhay natin na hindi natin alam at hindi ginusto.Pero ang bawat bagay na iyun ay may katuturan sa ating buhay.natuwa at humanga ako sa iyo sapagkat ikay matapang na ilathala ang iyong saloobin bagamat kabiguan at kapighatian ang iyong naramdaman ay hindi ka natakot at nahiya na ihayag ito.Sa bawat paggising natin sa bawat umagang ginawa ng Diyos ay may kalakip na pag-asa at liwanag sa landas ng ating buhay.Ikaw ang gagawa at ang Dakilang Diyos ang magpapatnubay.Ang mabuting manunulat ay walang takot na ipahayag ang nilalaman ng kanyang puso at isip.Hindi nahihiya na ibahagi ang kaalaman na ibinigay ng Dakilang lumikha sa kanya.At ikaw ay natatangi na pagkalooban ng husay.Magaling ka...magtiwala ka sa iyong kakayahan...matutong maghintay at huwag mawalan ng pag-asa sapagkat sisilay ang magandang bukas.Pagyamanin pa ang iyong kakayahan at... Manalig, Magtiwala ng walang agam-agam sa nagbigay sa iyong HIRAM NA BUHAY.
Date added 2008-03-26 11:02:31 |
.jpg) nice | gurl ikaw na jud na.....
kaya mo yan i know you have the confidence and skill to pursue your dreams kaya mo yan ......
Date added 2008-03-15 15:00:53 |
 anna marie | I would like to congratulate ms. Odessa or better known as Love2 for being able to showcase your talent of writing. Your emotions and experiences paved the way for you to pursue your dreams and aspirations in life. You are a good writer, you have the talent and potentials. This is really God wants you to do. God is telling you to be His army assigned in the media/journalism. And I`m glad you did start a big step. Just continue pursuing your passion. God already planned a better future ahead of you. God bless!
Date added 2008-03-13 14:29:07 |
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